医人当关2019

在看Grey's Anatomy第二季22集，Yang负责给一位有强迫症的病人听诊，他不停拨弄灯的线控开关。Yang有点不耐烦说能不能停下来，病人说我也想，但抱歉不能，Yang没办法略带厌恶表情叹了口气转身走开。病人对旁边的George说她瞧不起我，George否认。
 
“我知道她是，三年来我见得多了，特别是最像我的人反而最讨厌我。”接着问Yang：“你是A型血，成绩全优(straight A)，一直是班上最好的学生?”
Yang：“是。”
病人：“只是你把你的强迫意识用在了有创造性的方面，我们是同一类人，这就是你无法忍受我的原因。”
 
Yang是典型的亚裔美国人，融合了东亚人的勤奋刻苦，又有美国人的aggressive。她是所有实习生中最勤奋的，每天到得最早，病例背得最用心，不放弃任何一个上手术台的机会。最初时George觉得压力太大说外科医生可能不适合自己，Yang就雄心勃勃地说外科是最hot的，是有男人味的，是海军陆战队，不适合那些娘娘腔。她从不收拾屋子，把所有时间和精力都投入到工作上。她把Burke的头巾放在储物柜里，每天激励自己要成为最伟大的外科医生。总之，她是优秀的，始终追求卓越的那类人。
 
读书时听过一种说法叫“优秀是一种习惯”，这是一种看似谦逊实际很霸道的说法，我曾经相信而且羡慕，有些人似乎从不认真念书，但考试总是第一，有人气质就是不同，天生的领导者。后来有机会跟一些牛X人物或并肩作战，或成为对手，或最终超越，才发现这是一种很装事儿的说法，他们都不像外表看起来那么轻松，私底下也在不停地自我激励，也有脆弱消极的一面，毕竟天才非常有限。
 
追求卓越是一种精神上的强迫行为，习惯于完美的做事方式，不愿让他人失望，不喜欢庸碌无为，严重时身不由己。
 
典型的强迫症会不自主地把一件事重复若干次，比如片中的病人问OR是否干净：“Is it clean,clean,clean?"Dr. McDreamy心领神会答道："It is clean,clean,clean".可见Sherperd的类型。

addison的出场其实不怎么讨巧。正当meredith和derek终于冲破了很多阻力决心面对自己的真实情感的时候，几乎是从天而降的她带着一种戏虐的表情盯着meredith说“原来你就是那个缠着我老公的婊子”。

她是与丈夫最好的朋友偷情的妻子，她是想要把丈夫从新女朋友手中抢回来的妻子，她是最后终于无奈认输黯然离开的迷人女子，她是首屈一指的妇产科医生却总也找不到属于自己的幸福。

我原来认为自己应该讨厌这样的角色，一个对婚姻不忠却还趾高气扬的女人。可是，其实她不是，专业，冷漠，骄傲只是她的面具，通过“坏”的那一面透露出来的可爱与直率，让人觉得更为难能可贵。

她是一个感情丰沛的在丈夫的冷漠之中迷失了方向的女人
她是一个哪怕只要有一线希望都不会轻易走开的坚强女人
她是一个敢于直面自己的错误并愿意牺牲一切的勇敢女人
她是一个不会主动去伤害情敌甚至还会保护她的大度女人
她是一个认输时候仍然可以优雅微笑坦然利落的大方女人
她是Addison Montgomery，
她很专业，她是Seattle grace hospital里唯一能有实力竞争主任的女医生
她很性感，人人都说她虽然有点神经质，但是非常hot
她很美，大眼睛，棕红色的头发，喜欢穿黑色衣服，身材完美到几乎无懈可击，既不像meredith那样瘦得干巴巴，又不是izzie的baby fat
她的心里面有伤口，她的丈夫当着她的面说爱另一个女人，她满心欢喜地以为可以和alex开始一段美好的感情却被残忍地告知“你永远都不是我的女朋友”
她眼睁睁地将自己完美的丈夫拱手相让，在离婚协议书上签上自己的名字
她眼睁睁地失去了Mark和alex，前者是不想让他为难，后者完全是情欲作怪
她想要一个孩子，想要生活能有寄托，可是却得到了再也不能生育的残酷消息
其实她是脆弱的，只是被掩埋在她的强势之下，每当看到她略带酸涩的自我解嘲，都会觉得心中最柔软的角落被人揪起。
她就像是生活在周围的最普通的女子，如此真实，带着那么点瑕疵不加任何修饰的率真。因此她的无助与彷徨，才那样地让人感同身受。
所以，她去LA重新开始她的新生活，她是对的。她从纽约跨越整个美国大陆来到西雅图寻找幸福，但是却在她的心上划下了最沉重的伤口。那么好的她，完全值得有一段不一样的人生。
闻名遐迩的妇产科专家终于去了一个名不见经传的私人诊所。她需要为自己疗伤，她再也不需要地位，财富或者事业上的发展机会了，其实她只是一个普通的女人，寻找爱，寻找可以驻足的风景，寻找那个可以一生相守的人。
addison，祝你幸福。请你幸福。you deserve better。

我怎么都忘不了grey对Derek郑重其事地这样说.

直到现在,她的神情,口吻,声音,都不停回荡在我脑海里,像一部自动播放机,反复而强烈.

有一点哀怨,多一点坚定,有一点撒娇,多一点坚持.

坚持.是的.

在这里我想说的是,对于每天第一个迎接我们在真实世界苏醒过来的太阳,对于偶尔一场来去无意地霜降,对于繁华世界瞬息万变的人们,对于纷繁复杂需要面对的现实,对于更多不由自主的选择与被选择...

我们能不能也大声地,深情地说一句:

choose me! pick me! love me! 呢?

总有人在说,生活总是要继续的.
诚然如此,但我们能不能不要半推半就的生活?

我不想在经历了这样一些挫折之后跟自己说我是不行的,原来我这么糟糕.我不想在经历一些失去之后跟自己说这是注定的,不是你的就不是你的.我不想在每天醒来之后不知道自己今天应该做些什么,不知道哪些是我真的愿意去做的.我不想在每天睡觉之前对于明天是没有任何期待的,甚至都没有一件事能够让我醒来后从床上利索地下来开始行动的.
...
我通通不想
...
因为我要好好生活.

要让温暖的太阳选择我,要让美好的运气选择我,要让胜利的快乐选择我,要让相聚的幸福选择我,要让旅行的喜悦选择我...

要让我的每一天都值得.去期待,去到达,去完成.

假如我还有80年的生命..80年就是960月..就是29200天...

接下来,我要好好爱我的每一个1/29200.
我要对你说:
I love you and i choose you.
Please,pick me and love me.

SEASON ONE

Episode 1: “A Hard Day’s Night”
O.A.O.T.S., "Dance"
Thirteen Senses, "Into the Fire"
Butterfly Boucher, "Life Is Short"
Rilo Kiley, "Portions for Foxes"
Vaughan Penn, "Ready to Rise"
BANG sugar BANG, "Super Cool?
Jem, "They"

Episode 2: “The First Cut is the Deepest”
The Cardigans, "Live and Learn"
The Ditty Bops, "Sister Kate"
Keane, "Somewhere Only We Know"
Get Set Go, "Wait"
Tegan and Sara, "You Wouldn't Like Me"

Episode 3: “Winning a Battle, Losing the War”
Lisa Loeb, "Fools Like Me"
Tegan and Sara, "I Won't Be Left"
The Ditty Bops, "There's a Girl"
The Ditty Bops, "Wishful Thinking"
Reindeer Section, "You Are My Joy"

Episode 4: “No Man’s Land”
Get Set Go, "Break Your Heart"
The Eames Era, "Could Be Anything"
Rosie Thomas, "Let Myself Fall"
Sia, "Sunday"
Vaughan Penn, "Truth"
Tegan and Sara, "Where Does the Good Go?"

Episode 5: “Shake Your Groove Thing”
Ivy, "Edge of the Ocean"
Interpol, "Evil"
Dee, "Money Girl"
Buffseeds, "Sparkle Me"
Psapp, "Tiger, My Friend"
The Ditty Bops, "Wake Up"

Episode 6: “If Tomorrow Never Comes”
Psapp, "Chapter"
Butterfly Boucher, "Never Leave Your Heart Alone"
Jem, "Save Me"
The Ditty Bops, "Walk or Ride"

Episode 7: “The Self-Destruct Button”
Tegan and Sara, "Downtown"
Wilco, "Hummingbird"
Joe Purdy, "Suitcase"
ACDC, "The Self-Destruct Button"
Jem, "Wish I"

Episode 8: “Save Me”
Nellie McKay, "David"
Masha Qrella, "Feels Like"
Tegan and Sara, "Fix You Up"
Joe Purdy, "I Love the Rain the Most"
78 Saab, "No Illusions"
Laura Veirs, "Rapture"

Episode 9: “Who’s Zoomin’ Who?”
A.M. Sixty, "Big As the Sky"
Psapp, "Cosy In the Rocket"
Medeski, Martin & Wood, "End of the World Party"
Iron & Wine, "Naked As We Came"
Maria Taylor, "Song Beneath the Song"
Nellie McKay, "The Dog Song"
The Radio, "Whatever Gets You Through Today"


SEASON TWO

Episode 1: “Raindrops Keep Fallin’ On My Head”
Firstcom, "All I Need"
Michelle Branch, "Breathe"
Esthero & Sean Lennon, "Everyday Is a Holiday (With You)"
Ivy, "Feel So Free"
Bow Wow Wow, "I Want Candy"
Mike Doughty, "Looking At the World from the Bottom of a Well"
Kate Earl, "Some one to Love"
Blue-Eyed Son, "Step Away From the Cliff"
Joe Purdy, "The City"

Episode 2: “Enough is Enough (No More Tears)”
Goldfrapp, "Beautiful"
Joy Zipper, "Go Tell The World"
Jem, "Just a Ride"
kt tunstall, "Suddenly I See"
Brandi Carlile, "What Can I Say"

Episode 3: “Make Me Lose Control”
Sylvie Lewis, "By Heart"
Inara George, "Fools In Love"
Elevator Action, "I'm a Bitch"
Roisin Murphy, "Ruby Blue"
Get Set Go, "Sleep"
Maria Taylor, "Song Beneath the Song"

Episode 4: “Deny, Deny, Deny”
Ben Lee, "Catch My Disease"
The Delgados, "I Fought the Angels"
Merrick, "Infinity"
Rolsin Murphy, "Ramalama"

Episode 5: “Bring the Pain”
Way Out West, "Don't Forget Me"
Mike Doughty, "I Hear the Bells"
Tegan and Sara, "Not Tonight"
Roisin Murphy, "Prelude to Love In the Making"
Blue-Eyed Son, "Step Away from the Cliff"
Blue-Eyed Son, "When I Come Home"
Cowboy Racer, "Yellow Horse"

Episode 6: “Into You Like a Train”
The Hereafter, "Back Where I Was"
B.C. Camplight, "Blood and Peanut Butter"
Umbrellas, "The City Lights"
Emiliana Torrini, "Today Has Been Okay"

Episode 7: “Something to Talk About”
The Faders, "Better Off Dead"
Annie, "Chewing Gum"
Mark Joseph, "Get Through"
kt tunstall, "other side of the world"
Rosie Thomas, "Since You've Been Around"

Episode 8: “Let it Be”
Gabin, "Bang Bang to the Rock n' Roll"
Joe Purdy, "Far Away Blues"
Nouvelle Vague, "I Melt With You"
Anya Marina, "Miss Halfway"
The Faders, "No Sleep Tonight"
The Chalets, "Sexy Mistake"

Episode 9: “Thanks for the Memories”
The O.A.O.T.'s, "Dance"
Dressy Bessy, "New Song (From Me to You)"
Keren Ann, "Not Going Anywhere"
Fannypack, "Nu Nu (Yeah Yeah)"
Josh Rouse, "Sad Eyes"
Emiliana Torrini, "Serenade"
Nellie McKay, "The Dog Song"
Mark McAdam, "Too Hard"

Episode 10: “Much Too Much”
Get Set Go, "Crying Shame"
James Blunt, "High"
Greenskeepers, "Lotion"
Roisin Murphy, "Night of the Dancing Flame"
Lifehouse, "You and Me"

Episode 11: “Owner of a Lonely Heart”
Jim Noir, "I Me You"
Emiliana Torrini, "Sunny Road"
James Blunt, "Tears and Rain"
Gemma Hayes, "Two Step"
Moonbabies, "War On Sound"

Episode 12: “Grandma Got Run Over By a Reindeer”
Jet, "Back Door Santa"
Maria Taylor, "Christmas After All"
Holidays on Ice, "Here Comes Your Ride"
Sixpence None The Richer, "It Came Upon a Midnight Clear"
The LeeVees, "Latke Clan"
Catie Curtis, "Lo, How A Rose E'er Blooming"
Lou Rawls, "Santa Claus Is Comin' to Town"
Nat King Cole, "The Christmas Song (Merry Christmas to You)"
Mascott & Dave Derby, "This Christmastime"

Episode 13: “Begin the Begin”
Slow Runner, "Break Your Momma's Back"
The 88, "Hide Another Mistake"
Kraak & Smaak, "One of These Days"
Cary Brothers, "Ride"

Episode 14: “Tell Me Sweet Little Lies”
Saint Etienne, "A Good Thing"
Carey Ott, "Am I Just One"
Adrienne Pierce, "Fool's Gold"
Sam Winch, "I Got Some Moves"
Metric, "Monster Hospital"
Mike Tarantino, "Wienermobile Girl"

Episode 15: “Break On Through”
Emilia, "Big Big World"
Leeroy Stagger, "Just In Case"
Landon Pigg, "Sailed On"
Kendall Payne, "Scratch"
Rebecca Lynn, "Small World, Big Girl"
Kate Earl, "Someone to Love"
Aqueduct, "The Suggestion Box"
Vassy, "Wanna Fly"

Episode 16: “It’s the End of the World…”
Big Big World (TNT Big Phat Mix): Emilia
Monotypes, "Dead Streets"
Michael Stipe & Chris Martin, "In The Sun"
Joseph Arthur, "In the Sun"
Ursula 1000, "Kaboom"
kt tunstall, "Miniature Disasters"
Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"

Episode 17: “... As We Know It”
Greenskeepers, "Back In The Wild"
Anna Nalick, "Breathe (2 a.m.)"
Foy Vance, "Homebird"
Correatown, "I Tell Myself"
Ambulance LTD, "Stay Where You Are"
Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"
The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"

Episode 18: “Yesterday”
All Sad Girls Are Beautiful, "Baby Blue"
Joshua Radin, "Closer"
Psapp, "Cosy In the Rocket"
Diplo, Pantera Os Danadinhos, Sandra Melody & Vybz Cartel, "Diplo Rhythm"
Headlights Headlights, "Everybody Needs a Fence to Lean On"
Rosie Thomas, "It Don't Matter to the Sun"
Devics, "Just One Breath"
Corinne Bailey-Rae, "Like a Star"
Shout Out Louds, "Wish I Was Dead Pt. 2"

Episode 19: “What Have I Done to Deserve This?”
Boy Least Likely To, "Be Gentle With Me"
Madeline Peyroux, "Careless Love"
Get Set Go, "I Hate Everyone"
Devics, "Just One Breath"
Corinne Bailey Rae, "Like A Star"
Sandra Melody, "Newsflash"
New Moscow, "Slow Down"
Brandi Carlile, "Throw It All Away"
Emiliana Torrini, "Today Has Been Okay"

Episode 20: “Band Aid Covers the Bullet Hole”
Ning Baizura, "Breathe Again"
Sing-Sing, "Come, Sing Me a Song"
Jem, "Flying High"
The Last Town Chorus, "Modern Love"
Tina Dico, "One"
Urbs, "So Weit"

Episode 21: “Superstition”
Anna Nalick, "Catalyst"
Luke Doucet, "Free"
Foy Vance, "Gabriel and the Vagabond"
Dr, Moses McNeil and Company, "Halleluah"
Rufus Wainwright, "Hallelujah"
Jeff Buckley, "Hallelujah"
The Fray, "How to Save a Life"
Devics, "Just One Breath"
Jamie Lidell, "Multiply"
Postal Service, "Such Great Heights"
Greenskeepers, "You Don't Know Me"

Episode 22: “Name of the Game”
Sunshine, "C'Mon Yeah"
Gnarls Barkley, "Crazy"
Dressy Bessy, "Girl, You Shout!"
Butterfly Boucher, "Life Is Short"
Joshua Radin, "The Fear You Won't Fall"
Anna Nalick, "Wreck of the Day"
Phil War, "You Think I'm Crazy"

Special: “Under Pressure”
Breath, "Breaking Down"
Mark Joseph, "Fly"
Adrienne Pierce, "Fool's Gold"
Merrick, "Infinity"
Bright Eyes, "I Woke Up With This Song In My Head This Morning"
The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"
Kendall Payne, "Scratch"

Episode 23: "Blues For Sister Someone"
Metric, "Police and the Private"
Hotel Lights, "Follow Through"
Sunshine, "Love"
James Morrison, "Better Man"
Caleb Kane, "Go Mad"
The Chalets, "Gogo Don't Go"
The Chalets, "Red High Heels"
The Chalets, "Fight Your Kids"

Episode 24: "Damage Case"
Foy Vance, "Homebird"
Kate Havnevik, "Nowhere Warm"
Regina Spektor, "On The Radio"
Brandi Carlile, "Tragedy"
The Legends, "Something Good"
Inara George, "Oh My Love"
Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"
Anna Nalick, "Breathe (2 a.m.)"
Natalie Wilson, "When You Need a Friend"
The HorrorPops, "Where They Wander"

Episode 25: "17 Seconds"

Yeah Yeah Yeahs, "Gold Lion"
Snow Patrol, "Somewhere A Clock Is Ticking"

Episode 26: "Deterioration of the Fight or Flight Response"
KT Tunstall, "Universe And U"
The Coral Sea, "Look At Her Face"
Au Revoir Simone, "Through The Backyards"
Gomez, "How We Operate"

Episode 27: "Losing My Religion"
Peter Droge, "Under The Waves"
Dressy Bessy, "Side 2"
Amos Lee, "Colors"
Masha Qrella, "Destination Vertical"
Kate Havnevik, "Grace"
Snow Patrol, "Chasing Cars"


SEASON THREE

Episode 1: "Time Has Come Today"
The Dixie Chicks, "Lullaby"
Tegan & Sara, "Take Me Anywhere"
Sleeping At Last, "Quicksand"
Emiliana Torrini, "Nothing Brings Me Down"
Gnarls Barkley, "Gone Daddy Done"
Grant Lee Phillips, "Under The Milky Way"

Episode 2: "I Am a Tree"
Moloko, "The Time Is Now"
Mat Kearney, "Crashing Down"
The Chalets, "Theme From Chalets"
Bittersweet, "The Mating Game"
Jesus Jackson, "Running On Sunshine"
Snow Patrol, "Open Your Eyes"
Mat Kearney, "All I Need"

Episode 3: "Sometimes a Fantasy"
Outkast, "Idlewild Blues"
Lilly Allen, "Take What You Take"
The Pipettes, "Dirty Mind"
The Bamboos, "Step It Up"
The Poems, "Ballad of a Bitter End"
Joe Purdy, "Can't Get It Right Today"

Episode 4: "What I Am"
Camera Obscura, "If Looks Could Kill"
The Gossip, "Standing In The Way Of Control"
Au Revoire Simone, "Back In Time"
Kate Havnevik, "So - Lo"
TV On The Radi, "Province"
Mindy Smith, "Fall For Nothing"

Episode 5: "Oh, The Guilt"
Nellie McKay, "Clonie"
Kate Havnevik, "Kaleidoscope"
The Second Band, "Wild Is The Wind"
Fionn Regan, "Be Good Or Be Gone"
Keisha White, "Don't Mistake Me"

Episode 6, "Let The Angels Commit"
Teddy Bears, "Cobrastyle"
Jim Noir, "My Patch"
Peter Bjorn & John, "Young Folks"
Gomez, "Notice"
Vega 4, "Life is Beautiful"

Episode 7: "Where The Boys Are"
Beck, "Think I'm In Love"
Jim Noir, "Tell Me What To Do"
Luke Temple, "Make Right With You"
Inara George, "Greedy"
The Jealous Girlfriends, "Something In The Water"
Big Sandy & His Fly Rite Boys, "It's Time"
Brett Dennen, "There Is So Much More"
Bedouin Soundclash, "12:59 Lullaby"
Bill Ricchini, "A Cold Wind Will Blow Through Your Door"

Episode 8: "Staring at the Sun"
Lily Allen, "Not Big"
Get Set Go, "Everybody Get Movin'"
The Watson Twins, "Time of My Life"
Mat Kearney, "Where We Gonna Go From Here"
Ingrid Michaelson, "Breakable"
Chandra Wilson (Miranda Bailey), "God Bless the Child"

Episode 9: "From a Whisper to a Scream"
The Dears, "You And I Are A Gang of Losers"
Damien Rice, "9 Crimes"
Kate Havnevik, "New Day"

Episode 10: "Don't Stand So Close to Me"
Anya Marina, "Sociopath"
John Legend, "Show Me"
Son Volt, "World Waits For You"

Episode 11: "Six Days (Part I)"
The Research, "Lonely Hearts Still Beat The Same"
William Fitzsimmons, "Passion Play"
Emiliana Torrini, "Beggars Prayer (demo)"
Michelle Featherstone, "Rest Of My Life"
Travis, "Love Will Come Through"

Episode 12: "Six Days (Part II)"

1. OK Go, "Here It Goes Again"
The song plays as Meredith and Derek bicker in bed after not getting much sleep. Izzie and George discuss Izzie's check.

2. Regina Spektor, "Fidelity"
The song plays as Addison and Callie talk about Addison's choice to not have Mark's baby.

3. Ingrid Michaelson, "The Way That I Am"
The song plays as Cristina complains about sleeping alone, and Meredith confesses she feels jealous of George's relationship with his dad. Cristina brings Burke his dinner.

4. Susanna & The Magical Orchestra, "Love Will Tear Us Apart"
The song plays as the O'Malley family makes a decision about George's dad.

5. Gary Jules, "Falling Awake"
The song plays as Burke, Cristina and Derek talk about Mr. o'Malley. His family is gathered around him in the hospital. George's friends wait in support of him.

6. The Slip, "Life in Disguise"
The song plays as Cristina consoles George, Alex and Addison spend time together, and Derek goes to sleep beside Meredith.

Episode 13: “Great Expectations”

1. Lily Frost, “Enchantment”
Burke has Derek and Meredith over for a dinner party at his house, and Cristina sits in the kitchen counter tossing cereal into her mouth and drinking wine straight from the bottle.

2. Umbrellas, “Ships”
Callie, Cristina and Richard operate on a patient. Derek yells at Meredith about telling Sloan about the chief. Dr. Bailey asks Dr. Burke for help. Izzie talks to Rachel about letting go of Jilly who is going to die of a disease.

3. Skye, “Love Show”
Addison invites Alex to a surgery. Meredith and Derek fight, but make up. Cristina and Burke make up. George and Callie make up.

Episode 14: "Wishin' and Hopin'"

1. Sybarite, "Runaway" feat. Psapp
The song plays as Izzie and Bailey look onto their new "Denny Duquette Memorial" clinic. Cristina considers her ring. Meredith prepares to speak with her mother.

2. Beck, "Elevator Music"
The song plays as Izzie and Alex offer a patient a free consultation. Ellis and Cristina talk about Meredith.

3. Miho Hatori, "Barracuda"
The song plays as Vincent learns about his girlfriend. Cristina begs to be included in a surgery. Meredith warns Derek about her mother but Derek talks to Ellis anyway.

4. Iain Archer, "Canal Song"
The song plays as Meredith talks with Richard.

5. Susanna & The Magical Orchestra, "Believer"
The song plays as Richard and Ellis talk about Meredith and their past relationship.

6. The Whitest Boy Alive, "Fireworks"
The song plays as Cristina and Burke share their moment.

Episode 15: "Walk On Water"

1. Radio Citizen, "The Hop"
Meredith sits in the bathtub alone, Derek tells Meredith he is concerned about her, Izzie misses George, Cristina tells Burke not to tell anyone they are engaged.

2. Union of Knives, "Opposite Direction"
Bailey tells interns to get out there and help people, Meredith tends to the wounded.

3. 8MM, "Liar"
Izzie tells Vince to find search and rescue, Derek asks Meredith if she is upset, Addison and Richard talk, Cristina confronts Burke.

4. Snow Patrol, "Make This Go On Forever"
Alex checks on Jane Doe, Mrs. Heit waits for word on her son, Rick starts to have a seizure, A crowd of distraught family members yells at Alex, and Meredith is accidentally knocked off the pier into the water.

Episode 16: "Drowning On Dry Land"

1. Butterfly Boucher, "A Bitter Song"
The song plays as the episode opens and Meredith struggles in the water. Later, the track plays at the end of the episode as the doctors furiously work on Meredith.

2. Kate Havnevik, "Timeless"
Song plays as Izzie drills into the patient's head. The little girl stares at the water as Derek finally emerges with Meredith.

3. Patrick Watson, "The Great Escape"
The song plays as Izzie is in surgery with her patient. Alex posts pictures from the morgue.

Episode 17: "Some Kind of Miracle"

1. Aqualung, "The Lake"
The song plays early in the episode as the Chief works on Meredith.

2. Damien Rice, "Sleep Don't Weep"
This track is showcased when Meredith's heart flatlines, and the doctors look on, perplexed - and unsure if they should continue.

3. Unkle Bob, "Swans"
Song plays as Chief says goodbye to Ellis, Derek sleeps by Meredith, and Izzie & Denny sense each other in the hallway.

Episode 18: "Scars and Souvenirs"

1. Koop, "Come To Me"
Plays as Izzie gets surprised by Alex in the morning, and she complains to Meredith about it. At the same time, George complains to his wife, Callie, about Izzie.

2. Gomez, "Girlshapedlovedrug"
Cristina catches up with Colin, who shows up out of the blue. Derek and George prep for her operation. Callie tells George about her family.

3. Psapp, "Hi"
This one plays while Meredith tells Derek she is having dinner with her father, Thatcher, and the interns talk in the cafeteria.

4. Wild Sweet Orange, "Land Of No Return"
Meredith and her father and stepmother have dinner. Meanwhile, Dr. Burke questions Cristina about her past relationships.

5. Anya Marina, "Move You"
George and Izzie get drunk and have a blast together. Alex checks on Jane Doe, again. Cristina and Meredith have a heart to heart.

Episode 19: "My Favorite Mistake"

1. Mirah, "La Familia"
This song plays at the beginning of the episode as Izzie wakes up and Meredith and Cristina ask her questions about her night.

2. Alamo Race Track, "Black Cat John Brown"
At lunch, Izzie asks Meredith about blacking out after drinking. Cristina talks about Burke. Izzie asks about Jane Doe's face selection.

3. Adam Merrin, "Still Alright"
You hear this song as George has a flashback to the night before... and he goes to confront Izzie about it.

4. Let's Go Sailing, "All I Want From You Is Love"
This song plays as Meredith harvests bone during her much-anticipated operation, and Cristina amputates her patient's foot.

5. Let's Go Sailing, "Sideways"
Alex talks to Jane Doe about her new face. Cristina talks to Burke about their wedding. Meredith talks to Derek about her dad.

Episode 20: "Time After Time"

1. Amy Winehouse, "You Know I'm No Good"
The song plays as Burke and Cristina operate on a patient.

2. The Whitest Boy Alive, "Burning"
Plays as Cristina and Meredith discuss their issues with Colin and Susan, and Alex asks for Cristina's help.

3. Nouvelle Vague, "Dancing With Myself"
Playing in the background as the interns hang out at the clinic and talk about their patients.

4. Maria Taylor, "Clean Getaway"
George helps Izzie get dressed and she tells him about her family.

5. Lullaby Baxter, "Fontana Fontaine"
This track plays when Derek asks Bailey for advice about Meredith, and as George takes a recovering Izzie down to pediatrics.

6. Maria Taylor, "A Good Start"
Jane Doe argues with Alex. Burke and Cristina talk about Colin at home. Susan confronts Meredith and they have a heart to heart. Addison finds Richard hitting on a woman... and decides to intervene.

Episode 21: "Desire"

1. The Reddmen, "The Secrets of Amanda Prine"
We hear this song as the interns study for a big exam.

2. Let's Go Sailing, "Better Off"
Callie and Addison talk about their various relationships and feelings while this song plays (and Ava listens) in the background.

3. The Bird & The Bee, "Again & Again"
The interns continue studying, while testing out wedding cakes.

4. Beck, "Nausea"
The surgeons and interns participate in various operations.

5. Anna Waronker, "How Am I Doing"
This song plays at the end of the episode, as Cristina is studying and picks a cake, while George and Izzie talk about the future, and Addison unsuccessfully tries to get Alex to hang out with her.

Episodes 22 & 23: "The Other Side of This Life (Parts I & II)"

1. Feist, "Sealion"
The song plays as the interns are wakeful at night, and Cristina awakes to find Burke's mother is there.

2. The Mary Onettes, "Lost"
The song plays as Addison Montgomery drives along the Pacific coast and enters the Oceanside Wellness Clinic.

3. The Broken West, "Down In The Valley"
Addison enters the Wellness Clinic and finds Naomi.

4. The Switches, "Message From Yuz"
Naomi tells Addison they have an opening.

5. The Rosewood Thieves, "Los Angeles"
Couples therapy at the Wellness Center.

6. Jem, "California Sun"
Naomi and Addison talk, Violet runs into her ex.

7. The Adored, "Not Having It"
Cooper cries over his stripped vehicle.

8. Brandi Carlile, "Turpentine"
Addison yells at the elevator to stop talking!

Episode 24: "Testing 1-2-3"

1. Let's Go Sailing, "This Rope Is Long"
This song plays as Meredith gets dressed in a black dress as the interns study. Callie and George study. Meredith talks with Derek at the hospital and Cristina and Burke talk about the wedding.

2. Amy Winehouse, "Wake Up Alone"
The song plays as George tries to talk to the Chief, and the doctors operate on the three hypothermic mountain climbers.

3. Ingrid Michaelson, "Corner Of Your Heart"
Alex and Ava argue about her memory and what she really knows. Izzie tries to talk with George about Mercy West but becomes upset.

4. The Weather Machines, "Stains Of Saints"
This song plays as Addison joins Derek, Mark and Preston at Burke's bachelor party at Joe's bar.

5. Paolo Nutini, "Million Faces"
A mysterious woman offers to buy Derek a drink in the bar, while Ava (or Rebecca Pope) and Alex reconcile, and Richard finds Adele.

Episode 25: "Didn't We Almost Have It All"

1. The Jealous Girlfriends, "Roboxula"
Callie copies Cristina's vows onto her hand, Izzie and Meredith play toilet paper bride, Richard tells Mark he won't be Chief, and Bailey tells Derek that they found the fourth mountain climber.

2. Grace Potter, "Falling Or Flying"
Cristina is unable to sleep on the eve of her wedding day, Alex watches Rebecca and her husband talk, Derek talks to Meredith about his night.

3. Ray Lamontagne, "Hold You In My Arms"
Burke practices his vows in the O.R., Callie says she wants a baby, Alex talks with Rebecca's husband, Jeff, while he holds her baby.

4. Coburn, "Closer"
Cristina operates in order to clear her head before the ceremony. Izzie helps George tie his tie and declares her feelings for him.

5. Ray Lamontagne, "Within You"
The interns get their test results. Ava begs Alex to give her a reason to stay, and Meredith and Derek have a disappointing heart to heart.

6. The Hereafter, "Eulogy"
The song plays as Alex talks to Addison about Ava. George and Bailey talk about his results, and whether they failed one another. Meanwhile, the ladies get ready for the wedding.

7. The Mary Onettes, "Explosions"
Cristina readies herself and Preston goes to check on her.

8. Ingrid Michaelson, "Keep Breathing"
The song plays in the final few minutes of the episode as Alex looks for Rebecca, Meredith helps Cristina out of her dress, Callie watches Izzie sitting in the chapel, George meets Lexie Grey, and Richard talks with Derek about the Chief position.

P.S.
在雨天，在晚上，反反复复听着曾经在剧集里出现的那些歌。随着歌的旋律模模糊糊记得起那些情节，那些漂浮不定的情绪。

因为这部剧，记得Jem，记得Thirteen Senses，记得Snow Patrol，记得Keane，当然也会记得Meredith、Dereck、Cristina、Izzie这些人物。他们的哭与笑，快乐与悲伤，都在这些那些歌中。

    正常的人都是相似的，不正常的人则各有各的不正常，
    这是对GA起早贪黑跟了5季之后的心得……
　　　　
    强烈要求编剧多加入几个健康角色，类似bruke这种的，
    至少别那么拧巴，那么矫情，那么作，
    你爱我，我就不爱你，你不爱我，我就偏爱你，
    你给我的，我就不要，你不给我的，给不了我的，我就非要，
    我要的，我又不要了，我不要的，我又要了，
    你要分手，我就不分手，你不要分手，我就非分手，
    你进我退，你退我追，你驻我扰，你疲我打，
    关系不正常的时候，我小弟弟总是能随便举到处举，关系一旦稳固正常，我的小弟弟就怎么举都不举，
    你结婚我，我就非装着不乐意结婚你，就忸怩、就作态、我就临大典了，来宾都上齐了，还强烈要求上一次手术案子拿刀划拉一下病人的肉，否则我就好像不够坚守自我（真正自我够强大的人至于么？）
    等到你不结婚我，我就心碎就酸楚就黯然，就重新发现你多么值得珍惜，就领悟有了你的幸福和没了你的不幸福，就非愿意结婚你——早干嘛去了都？！
    就得要军医这样的，才治得了这种爱作的女人，快断气了么？圆珠笔往气管插上。皮开肉绽了么？订书机赶紧钉上。有手术的可能么？立马动上。喜欢了么？摁倒了亲上。
    祈祷编剧好好写啊，别给这个基础大好的角色整恶劣了，整纠结了。
    他需要像植物一样向阳、像狮子一样健壮、刚猛、果决、体内流动着纯酿威士忌一样的男性荷尔蒙。
　　　　
　　　　
    另，强烈要求编剧把Izzie这个人物/这个害虫好好修理修理～～～
    烦得俺不行鸟，
    刚出来时明明还是个善良、坚强的good girl，谁知越发展人格越扭曲、变形，
    总一副救世主或人生导师的姿态，插手和干涉别人感情，
    实际上自己的那破人生却料理得一塌糊涂、连夜漏雨、处处破洞，感情来得奇怪和草率，去得匆匆而莫明，
    刚还跟Alex那儿眉间心上、搞来搞去，转脸Denny来，马上便把Alex打进冷藏室，和Denny爱得惊天地、泣鬼神，眼神、微笑和泪水在整个病房里穿梭得、黏稠得水泄不通。
    接着Denny尸骨未寒便已人走茶凉，连忙饥不择食插足george和Callie的婚姻，希望从中找心理平衡。
    她对george和Callie婚姻进行的破坏，可能谈不上什么具体的邪恶动机，不过潜意识里绝对有一种类似寡母对儿子的独占心态，既然死了Denny爹，就赶紧要把她滔滔不绝、无处安放的爱找个儿子角色倾泄出来，对Callie的冷嘲热讽和恶意攻击，看起来完全是恶婆婆对儿媳鸡蛋里挑骨头的姿态。
    把george抢过来，玩了几天，发现情况完全脱离自己的预期，其实压根也没爱到当初自己认为的那份儿地老天荒、死去活来，或说这个玩意儿也没那么好玩，转而便开始死死盯上Alex和eva。
    看到她每天跟在Alex的屁股后唠逼叨唠逼叨唠逼叨，泪眼婆娑的排放出好像空谷回声一样延绵不绝的排比句：i care about you care about you care about you …………
    呕麦告～～，俺真想像Alex那样转回头去对她怒吼：shut up！stupid bitch！！
    这个女人对人家的幸福和不幸都要奋不顾身扑上去，嗡嗡萦绕上空，盘旋不去，完全只有苍蝇方能够做到，也完全只有苍蝇方能够形容～～

      Denny出场时躺在病床上，眼睛始终跟随着Izzie，他脸上所展开的笑容一下子抓住了我：舒展，明亮，由衷，和他温柔的眼睛辉映着，很直接的传递着爱意，毫不掩饰。看着这样一张脸孔，我想任何女人的心都会荡漾着暖意的。
      一个受着病痛折磨的人，却一直保持着宽厚明朗的笑容，比任何健康强壮的人更豁达。看着Denny，我有一种很强烈的感觉：生活是如此的动人。我想不起Izzie是怎样爱上他的，可能就是这样一分分一寸寸的潜移默化了。
      记忆中很揪心的一幕，是Denny第二次入院，因为病情恶化需要在清醒状态中电击来帮助恢复心脏功能。他在电击时痛苦得大喊，然后对医生说：我讨厌你，你让我像孩子一样大声喊叫，还是在我想取悦的女孩面前。Izzie紧张担心的脸上一瞬间露出笑容——在自己遭受痛苦的时候还不忘发挥的可爱的幽默感，来安慰所爱的女人。这样一个男人，足够照亮一个女人的心。
      Izzie努力的劝说Denny接受安装心脏辅助装置的手术，来争取更多等待移植的时间--看到这一部分的时候，其实我心里十分矛盾纠结。我希望他们能最终成为彼此的补偿，哪怕是多一分钟也好，不要留下遗憾。可又知道这样的努力在给Denny的身体带来多一次的痛苦。虽然Denny的脸上也开始露出疲惫失望，但他还是对着Izzie笑着，在她的鼓励下再试一次，再试一次……哪怕明知这是渺茫的希望。有时候我在想，Izzie的爱是不是有些自私，可这又怎么来界定呢，百分之一的美好未来要用百分之九十九的痛苦来博取，是为了自己，也是为了对方，只有相爱的人才能这么去做吧。
      Denny终于从病床上站了起来，他们有了第一个拥抱。Izzie含泪微笑，说，你很高。
      为了争取到心脏移植的优先权，Izzie不惜触犯法规，切断Denny心脏装置的电源线来恶化他的病情。这情到深处的铤而走陷遭到Denny的反对，他温柔的注视着这个为爱疯狂的女孩，希望她能让他安静的离开。可这是一个不愿向命运服输的女孩，而Denny又是一个深情包容的男人。最终在她失控的喊着“求求你，求求你，就当是为了我”的眼泪中，他抱住她，说了“好”。
      术后醒来的Denny重复了进手术室前的求婚，在得到Izzie“Yes”的回答后，他对身旁的Bailey医生说：我哄她嫁给我了，我聪明吧。
      我们都以为新的生活就此展开了，可在Izzie挑选了三条礼服，终于穿着最漂亮的紫红色裙子来到Denny面前时，他的心跳却已经停止了。不久以前他刚让她感受过温热的手，他们刚刚不可思议的订下婚约……突然这一切都像从没发生过一样了。
      我有些不敢相信爱情故事就这样结束了。其实在这样一部美剧中，其他每个爱情都无外乎是相识，触电，默契，一点点情绪作用，然后是性……并不是说不真挚，只是很速成。而Denny和Izzie的情感在这样的环境中，就显得格外不同了：不同与常理，简直就像不是站在现实中的。所以才有了Izzie和同伴关于自己是否了解Denny的争论。她不清楚他的工作，他的家人，他的朋友，他生活得方式……她只看到他作为病人，住在医院的一面，从这些方面来说，她是不了解他。但了解并不会催生爱情，我很愿意相信这样无关于一切，只关乎两人之间单纯的感觉的爱情，这的确是很不实际，更可能是很戏剧的。但我相信，人的心底都是有抛开一切世俗去爱的能力的，只是有没有遇到那个能点燃你的人。
      Denny肯定是这样的人。
      在我的心里，他几乎等同于最明亮的笑容。

GA在实习医生紧张的生活中加入了幽默的元素和人性的分析。

我觉得第二季是到目前最出色的，尤其是火车车祸，炸弹，大结局这几集，都无可挑剔。如果原本有看了第一季觉得一般的朋友，只要看了这几集肯定无法忘怀。

GA的人物、对白和配乐都很出色，唯一希望就是第三季少一些琼瑶戏，多一些出彩的病例。

希望“越狱”热潮中，GA能被更多人所识货。

GA专题：http://www.meijumi.com/default.asp?cat=16

Derek拿着离婚协议书犹豫再三的时候，我是欣赏这个男人的。即使我知道在第四季还是第五季的时候他就会和Meredith结婚。

一起生活了十几年的人，哪个人可以轻易的将她赶出自己的生活。
一起过的十几个生日，圣诞，结婚纪念日，还有一系列的其他。
抹去这些需要一点犹豫和不舍，一点也不过分。
这个决定和他的太太是不是那个曾经和他好朋友睡过的女人无关，舍不得的是时间。

Meredith是个好女孩。她大声对Derek说：choose me的时候，没有人会说她任性的。因为她无辜而又美好，甚至很难算一个小三。

Derek最最后面的选择是肯定的，Meredith才是女主角。
只是要一点时间和波折。

Derek坐在椅子上一脸痛苦。
Baily路过说:你知道做这个选择其实一点也不难，but painful
Bailey也是个聪明的一塌糊涂的胖女人啊。