酒店实习生第一季

Derek拿着离婚协议书犹豫再三的时候，我是欣赏这个男人的。即使我知道在第四季还是第五季的时候他就会和Meredith结婚。

一起生活了十几年的人，哪个人可以轻易的将她赶出自己的生活。
一起过的十几个生日，圣诞，结婚纪念日，还有一系列的其他。
抹去这些需要一点犹豫和不舍，一点也不过分。
这个决定和他的太太是不是那个曾经和他好朋友睡过的女人无关，舍不得的是时间。

Meredith是个好女孩。她大声对Derek说：choose me的时候，没有人会说她任性的。因为她无辜而又美好，甚至很难算一个小三。

Derek最最后面的选择是肯定的，Meredith才是女主角。
只是要一点时间和波折。

Derek坐在椅子上一脸痛苦。
Baily路过说:你知道做这个选择其实一点也不难，but painful
Bailey也是个聪明的一塌糊涂的胖女人啊。

从一开始，我就认定Cristina和Meredith是一类人：同样的聪明，同样的优

秀，同样在受伤时拒绝抚慰，拒绝关怀，同样的孤独，同样的要求心灵和身体的

自由，同样的对真爱抱有希望。所以，她们成为了朋友，最要好的朋友，虽然

Mere和Izze、Geroge住在一起，但对Mere来说，他们只是室友，只有Cristina才

是与Mere心灵交通的人。
    曾经不理解，为何Cristina在Burk受伤，生命垂危时转身而去，终于在这里

找到了答案：由于9岁时目睹父亲因车祸流血致死，她害怕再次面对挚爱之人的

逝去，害怕自己在那一瞬间崩溃，害怕那种眼见着亲人在面前，生命一点一滴的

消失而无能为力的无助感。Mere何尝不是如此，眼看着被疾病慢慢夺走理智的母

亲，那种无助感也一直伴随着她，Cristina看到了，感觉到了，于

是，"Meredith Grey"成了“my person”.
   面对着威胁着Mere的死亡，她又一次选择了走开，买便宜货，在酒吧里拼命

灌酒，妄图这样打发时间，逃避心灵的伤痛。幸运的是，Cristina身边还有Burk

在,有了Burk的激励，她终于选择了面对这一切，而不放弃希望，当她满含热泪

，用坚定的声音说try again的时候，这已经不是原来那个Cristina了，而是一

个成长了的，可以用理智来面和意志对艰难困苦的Cristina。

SEASON ONE

Episode 1: “A Hard Day’s Night”
O.A.O.T.S., "Dance"
Thirteen Senses, "Into the Fire"
Butterfly Boucher, "Life Is Short"
Rilo Kiley, "Portions for Foxes"
Vaughan Penn, "Ready to Rise"
BANG sugar BANG, "Super Cool?
Jem, "They"

Episode 2: “The First Cut is the Deepest”
The Cardigans, "Live and Learn"
The Ditty Bops, "Sister Kate"
Keane, "Somewhere Only We Know"
Get Set Go, "Wait"
Tegan and Sara, "You Wouldn't Like Me"

Episode 3: “Winning a Battle, Losing the War”
Lisa Loeb, "Fools Like Me"
Tegan and Sara, "I Won't Be Left"
The Ditty Bops, "There's a Girl"
The Ditty Bops, "Wishful Thinking"
Reindeer Section, "You Are My Joy"

Episode 4: “No Man’s Land”
Get Set Go, "Break Your Heart"
The Eames Era, "Could Be Anything"
Rosie Thomas, "Let Myself Fall"
Sia, "Sunday"
Vaughan Penn, "Truth"
Tegan and Sara, "Where Does the Good Go?"

Episode 5: “Shake Your Groove Thing”
Ivy, "Edge of the Ocean"
Interpol, "Evil"
Dee, "Money Girl"
Buffseeds, "Sparkle Me"
Psapp, "Tiger, My Friend"
The Ditty Bops, "Wake Up"

Episode 6: “If Tomorrow Never Comes”
Psapp, "Chapter"
Butterfly Boucher, "Never Leave Your Heart Alone"
Jem, "Save Me"
The Ditty Bops, "Walk or Ride"

Episode 7: “The Self-Destruct Button”
Tegan and Sara, "Downtown"
Wilco, "Hummingbird"
Joe Purdy, "Suitcase"
ACDC, "The Self-Destruct Button"
Jem, "Wish I"

Episode 8: “Save Me”
Nellie McKay, "David"
Masha Qrella, "Feels Like"
Tegan and Sara, "Fix You Up"
Joe Purdy, "I Love the Rain the Most"
78 Saab, "No Illusions"
Laura Veirs, "Rapture"

Episode 9: “Who’s Zoomin’ Who?”
A.M. Sixty, "Big As the Sky"
Psapp, "Cosy In the Rocket"
Medeski, Martin & Wood, "End of the World Party"
Iron & Wine, "Naked As We Came"
Maria Taylor, "Song Beneath the Song"
Nellie McKay, "The Dog Song"
The Radio, "Whatever Gets You Through Today"


SEASON TWO

Episode 1: “Raindrops Keep Fallin’ On My Head”
Firstcom, "All I Need"
Michelle Branch, "Breathe"
Esthero & Sean Lennon, "Everyday Is a Holiday (With You)"
Ivy, "Feel So Free"
Bow Wow Wow, "I Want Candy"
Mike Doughty, "Looking At the World from the Bottom of a Well"
Kate Earl, "Some one to Love"
Blue-Eyed Son, "Step Away From the Cliff"
Joe Purdy, "The City"

Episode 2: “Enough is Enough (No More Tears)”
Goldfrapp, "Beautiful"
Joy Zipper, "Go Tell The World"
Jem, "Just a Ride"
kt tunstall, "Suddenly I See"
Brandi Carlile, "What Can I Say"

Episode 3: “Make Me Lose Control”
Sylvie Lewis, "By Heart"
Inara George, "Fools In Love"
Elevator Action, "I'm a Bitch"
Roisin Murphy, "Ruby Blue"
Get Set Go, "Sleep"
Maria Taylor, "Song Beneath the Song"

Episode 4: “Deny, Deny, Deny”
Ben Lee, "Catch My Disease"
The Delgados, "I Fought the Angels"
Merrick, "Infinity"
Rolsin Murphy, "Ramalama"

Episode 5: “Bring the Pain”
Way Out West, "Don't Forget Me"
Mike Doughty, "I Hear the Bells"
Tegan and Sara, "Not Tonight"
Roisin Murphy, "Prelude to Love In the Making"
Blue-Eyed Son, "Step Away from the Cliff"
Blue-Eyed Son, "When I Come Home"
Cowboy Racer, "Yellow Horse"

Episode 6: “Into You Like a Train”
The Hereafter, "Back Where I Was"
B.C. Camplight, "Blood and Peanut Butter"
Umbrellas, "The City Lights"
Emiliana Torrini, "Today Has Been Okay"

Episode 7: “Something to Talk About”
The Faders, "Better Off Dead"
Annie, "Chewing Gum"
Mark Joseph, "Get Through"
kt tunstall, "other side of the world"
Rosie Thomas, "Since You've Been Around"

Episode 8: “Let it Be”
Gabin, "Bang Bang to the Rock n' Roll"
Joe Purdy, "Far Away Blues"
Nouvelle Vague, "I Melt With You"
Anya Marina, "Miss Halfway"
The Faders, "No Sleep Tonight"
The Chalets, "Sexy Mistake"

Episode 9: “Thanks for the Memories”
The O.A.O.T.'s, "Dance"
Dressy Bessy, "New Song (From Me to You)"
Keren Ann, "Not Going Anywhere"
Fannypack, "Nu Nu (Yeah Yeah)"
Josh Rouse, "Sad Eyes"
Emiliana Torrini, "Serenade"
Nellie McKay, "The Dog Song"
Mark McAdam, "Too Hard"

Episode 10: “Much Too Much”
Get Set Go, "Crying Shame"
James Blunt, "High"
Greenskeepers, "Lotion"
Roisin Murphy, "Night of the Dancing Flame"
Lifehouse, "You and Me"

Episode 11: “Owner of a Lonely Heart”
Jim Noir, "I Me You"
Emiliana Torrini, "Sunny Road"
James Blunt, "Tears and Rain"
Gemma Hayes, "Two Step"
Moonbabies, "War On Sound"

Episode 12: “Grandma Got Run Over By a Reindeer”
Jet, "Back Door Santa"
Maria Taylor, "Christmas After All"
Holidays on Ice, "Here Comes Your Ride"
Sixpence None The Richer, "It Came Upon a Midnight Clear"
The LeeVees, "Latke Clan"
Catie Curtis, "Lo, How A Rose E'er Blooming"
Lou Rawls, "Santa Claus Is Comin' to Town"
Nat King Cole, "The Christmas Song (Merry Christmas to You)"
Mascott & Dave Derby, "This Christmastime"

Episode 13: “Begin the Begin”
Slow Runner, "Break Your Momma's Back"
The 88, "Hide Another Mistake"
Kraak & Smaak, "One of These Days"
Cary Brothers, "Ride"

Episode 14: “Tell Me Sweet Little Lies”
Saint Etienne, "A Good Thing"
Carey Ott, "Am I Just One"
Adrienne Pierce, "Fool's Gold"
Sam Winch, "I Got Some Moves"
Metric, "Monster Hospital"
Mike Tarantino, "Wienermobile Girl"

Episode 15: “Break On Through”
Emilia, "Big Big World"
Leeroy Stagger, "Just In Case"
Landon Pigg, "Sailed On"
Kendall Payne, "Scratch"
Rebecca Lynn, "Small World, Big Girl"
Kate Earl, "Someone to Love"
Aqueduct, "The Suggestion Box"
Vassy, "Wanna Fly"

Episode 16: “It’s the End of the World…”
Big Big World (TNT Big Phat Mix): Emilia
Monotypes, "Dead Streets"
Michael Stipe & Chris Martin, "In The Sun"
Joseph Arthur, "In the Sun"
Ursula 1000, "Kaboom"
kt tunstall, "Miniature Disasters"
Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"

Episode 17: “... As We Know It”
Greenskeepers, "Back In The Wild"
Anna Nalick, "Breathe (2 a.m.)"
Foy Vance, "Homebird"
Correatown, "I Tell Myself"
Ambulance LTD, "Stay Where You Are"
Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"
The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"

Episode 18: “Yesterday”
All Sad Girls Are Beautiful, "Baby Blue"
Joshua Radin, "Closer"
Psapp, "Cosy In the Rocket"
Diplo, Pantera Os Danadinhos, Sandra Melody & Vybz Cartel, "Diplo Rhythm"
Headlights Headlights, "Everybody Needs a Fence to Lean On"
Rosie Thomas, "It Don't Matter to the Sun"
Devics, "Just One Breath"
Corinne Bailey-Rae, "Like a Star"
Shout Out Louds, "Wish I Was Dead Pt. 2"

Episode 19: “What Have I Done to Deserve This?”
Boy Least Likely To, "Be Gentle With Me"
Madeline Peyroux, "Careless Love"
Get Set Go, "I Hate Everyone"
Devics, "Just One Breath"
Corinne Bailey Rae, "Like A Star"
Sandra Melody, "Newsflash"
New Moscow, "Slow Down"
Brandi Carlile, "Throw It All Away"
Emiliana Torrini, "Today Has Been Okay"

Episode 20: “Band Aid Covers the Bullet Hole”
Ning Baizura, "Breathe Again"
Sing-Sing, "Come, Sing Me a Song"
Jem, "Flying High"
The Last Town Chorus, "Modern Love"
Tina Dico, "One"
Urbs, "So Weit"

Episode 21: “Superstition”
Anna Nalick, "Catalyst"
Luke Doucet, "Free"
Foy Vance, "Gabriel and the Vagabond"
Dr, Moses McNeil and Company, "Halleluah"
Rufus Wainwright, "Hallelujah"
Jeff Buckley, "Hallelujah"
The Fray, "How to Save a Life"
Devics, "Just One Breath"
Jamie Lidell, "Multiply"
Postal Service, "Such Great Heights"
Greenskeepers, "You Don't Know Me"

Episode 22: “Name of the Game”
Sunshine, "C'Mon Yeah"
Gnarls Barkley, "Crazy"
Dressy Bessy, "Girl, You Shout!"
Butterfly Boucher, "Life Is Short"
Joshua Radin, "The Fear You Won't Fall"
Anna Nalick, "Wreck of the Day"
Phil War, "You Think I'm Crazy"

Special: “Under Pressure”
Breath, "Breaking Down"
Mark Joseph, "Fly"
Adrienne Pierce, "Fool's Gold"
Merrick, "Infinity"
Bright Eyes, "I Woke Up With This Song In My Head This Morning"
The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"
Kendall Payne, "Scratch"

Episode 23: "Blues For Sister Someone"
Metric, "Police and the Private"
Hotel Lights, "Follow Through"
Sunshine, "Love"
James Morrison, "Better Man"
Caleb Kane, "Go Mad"
The Chalets, "Gogo Don't Go"
The Chalets, "Red High Heels"
The Chalets, "Fight Your Kids"

Episode 24: "Damage Case"
Foy Vance, "Homebird"
Kate Havnevik, "Nowhere Warm"
Regina Spektor, "On The Radio"
Brandi Carlile, "Tragedy"
The Legends, "Something Good"
Inara George, "Oh My Love"
Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"
Anna Nalick, "Breathe (2 a.m.)"
Natalie Wilson, "When You Need a Friend"
The HorrorPops, "Where They Wander"

Episode 25: "17 Seconds"

Yeah Yeah Yeahs, "Gold Lion"
Snow Patrol, "Somewhere A Clock Is Ticking"

Episode 26: "Deterioration of the Fight or Flight Response"
KT Tunstall, "Universe And U"
The Coral Sea, "Look At Her Face"
Au Revoir Simone, "Through The Backyards"
Gomez, "How We Operate"

Episode 27: "Losing My Religion"
Peter Droge, "Under The Waves"
Dressy Bessy, "Side 2"
Amos Lee, "Colors"
Masha Qrella, "Destination Vertical"
Kate Havnevik, "Grace"
Snow Patrol, "Chasing Cars"


SEASON THREE

Episode 1: "Time Has Come Today"
The Dixie Chicks, "Lullaby"
Tegan & Sara, "Take Me Anywhere"
Sleeping At Last, "Quicksand"
Emiliana Torrini, "Nothing Brings Me Down"
Gnarls Barkley, "Gone Daddy Done"
Grant Lee Phillips, "Under The Milky Way"

Episode 2: "I Am a Tree"
Moloko, "The Time Is Now"
Mat Kearney, "Crashing Down"
The Chalets, "Theme From Chalets"
Bittersweet, "The Mating Game"
Jesus Jackson, "Running On Sunshine"
Snow Patrol, "Open Your Eyes"
Mat Kearney, "All I Need"

Episode 3: "Sometimes a Fantasy"
Outkast, "Idlewild Blues"
Lilly Allen, "Take What You Take"
The Pipettes, "Dirty Mind"
The Bamboos, "Step It Up"
The Poems, "Ballad of a Bitter End"
Joe Purdy, "Can't Get It Right Today"

Episode 4: "What I Am"
Camera Obscura, "If Looks Could Kill"
The Gossip, "Standing In The Way Of Control"
Au Revoire Simone, "Back In Time"
Kate Havnevik, "So - Lo"
TV On The Radi, "Province"
Mindy Smith, "Fall For Nothing"

Episode 5: "Oh, The Guilt"
Nellie McKay, "Clonie"
Kate Havnevik, "Kaleidoscope"
The Second Band, "Wild Is The Wind"
Fionn Regan, "Be Good Or Be Gone"
Keisha White, "Don't Mistake Me"

Episode 6, "Let The Angels Commit"
Teddy Bears, "Cobrastyle"
Jim Noir, "My Patch"
Peter Bjorn & John, "Young Folks"
Gomez, "Notice"
Vega 4, "Life is Beautiful"

Episode 7: "Where The Boys Are"
Beck, "Think I'm In Love"
Jim Noir, "Tell Me What To Do"
Luke Temple, "Make Right With You"
Inara George, "Greedy"
The Jealous Girlfriends, "Something In The Water"
Big Sandy & His Fly Rite Boys, "It's Time"
Brett Dennen, "There Is So Much More"
Bedouin Soundclash, "12:59 Lullaby"
Bill Ricchini, "A Cold Wind Will Blow Through Your Door"

Episode 8: "Staring at the Sun"
Lily Allen, "Not Big"
Get Set Go, "Everybody Get Movin'"
The Watson Twins, "Time of My Life"
Mat Kearney, "Where We Gonna Go From Here"
Ingrid Michaelson, "Breakable"
Chandra Wilson (Miranda Bailey), "God Bless the Child"

Episode 9: "From a Whisper to a Scream"
The Dears, "You And I Are A Gang of Losers"
Damien Rice, "9 Crimes"
Kate Havnevik, "New Day"

Episode 10: "Don't Stand So Close to Me"
Anya Marina, "Sociopath"
John Legend, "Show Me"
Son Volt, "World Waits For You"

Episode 11: "Six Days (Part I)"
The Research, "Lonely Hearts Still Beat The Same"
William Fitzsimmons, "Passion Play"
Emiliana Torrini, "Beggars Prayer (demo)"
Michelle Featherstone, "Rest Of My Life"
Travis, "Love Will Come Through"

Episode 12: "Six Days (Part II)"

1. OK Go, "Here It Goes Again"
The song plays as Meredith and Derek bicker in bed after not getting much sleep. Izzie and George discuss Izzie's check.

2. Regina Spektor, "Fidelity"
The song plays as Addison and Callie talk about Addison's choice to not have Mark's baby.

3. Ingrid Michaelson, "The Way That I Am"
The song plays as Cristina complains about sleeping alone, and Meredith confesses she feels jealous of George's relationship with his dad. Cristina brings Burke his dinner.

4. Susanna & The Magical Orchestra, "Love Will Tear Us Apart"
The song plays as the O'Malley family makes a decision about George's dad.

5. Gary Jules, "Falling Awake"
The song plays as Burke, Cristina and Derek talk about Mr. o'Malley. His family is gathered around him in the hospital. George's friends wait in support of him.

6. The Slip, "Life in Disguise"
The song plays as Cristina consoles George, Alex and Addison spend time together, and Derek goes to sleep beside Meredith.

Episode 13: “Great Expectations”

1. Lily Frost, “Enchantment”
Burke has Derek and Meredith over for a dinner party at his house, and Cristina sits in the kitchen counter tossing cereal into her mouth and drinking wine straight from the bottle.

2. Umbrellas, “Ships”
Callie, Cristina and Richard operate on a patient. Derek yells at Meredith about telling Sloan about the chief. Dr. Bailey asks Dr. Burke for help. Izzie talks to Rachel about letting go of Jilly who is going to die of a disease.

3. Skye, “Love Show”
Addison invites Alex to a surgery. Meredith and Derek fight, but make up. Cristina and Burke make up. George and Callie make up.

Episode 14: "Wishin' and Hopin'"

1. Sybarite, "Runaway" feat. Psapp
The song plays as Izzie and Bailey look onto their new "Denny Duquette Memorial" clinic. Cristina considers her ring. Meredith prepares to speak with her mother.

2. Beck, "Elevator Music"
The song plays as Izzie and Alex offer a patient a free consultation. Ellis and Cristina talk about Meredith.

3. Miho Hatori, "Barracuda"
The song plays as Vincent learns about his girlfriend. Cristina begs to be included in a surgery. Meredith warns Derek about her mother but Derek talks to Ellis anyway.

4. Iain Archer, "Canal Song"
The song plays as Meredith talks with Richard.

5. Susanna & The Magical Orchestra, "Believer"
The song plays as Richard and Ellis talk about Meredith and their past relationship.

6. The Whitest Boy Alive, "Fireworks"
The song plays as Cristina and Burke share their moment.

Episode 15: "Walk On Water"

1. Radio Citizen, "The Hop"
Meredith sits in the bathtub alone, Derek tells Meredith he is concerned about her, Izzie misses George, Cristina tells Burke not to tell anyone they are engaged.

2. Union of Knives, "Opposite Direction"
Bailey tells interns to get out there and help people, Meredith tends to the wounded.

3. 8MM, "Liar"
Izzie tells Vince to find search and rescue, Derek asks Meredith if she is upset, Addison and Richard talk, Cristina confronts Burke.

4. Snow Patrol, "Make This Go On Forever"
Alex checks on Jane Doe, Mrs. Heit waits for word on her son, Rick starts to have a seizure, A crowd of distraught family members yells at Alex, and Meredith is accidentally knocked off the pier into the water.

Episode 16: "Drowning On Dry Land"

1. Butterfly Boucher, "A Bitter Song"
The song plays as the episode opens and Meredith struggles in the water. Later, the track plays at the end of the episode as the doctors furiously work on Meredith.

2. Kate Havnevik, "Timeless"
Song plays as Izzie drills into the patient's head. The little girl stares at the water as Derek finally emerges with Meredith.

3. Patrick Watson, "The Great Escape"
The song plays as Izzie is in surgery with her patient. Alex posts pictures from the morgue.

Episode 17: "Some Kind of Miracle"

1. Aqualung, "The Lake"
The song plays early in the episode as the Chief works on Meredith.

2. Damien Rice, "Sleep Don't Weep"
This track is showcased when Meredith's heart flatlines, and the doctors look on, perplexed - and unsure if they should continue.

3. Unkle Bob, "Swans"
Song plays as Chief says goodbye to Ellis, Derek sleeps by Meredith, and Izzie & Denny sense each other in the hallway.

Episode 18: "Scars and Souvenirs"

1. Koop, "Come To Me"
Plays as Izzie gets surprised by Alex in the morning, and she complains to Meredith about it. At the same time, George complains to his wife, Callie, about Izzie.

2. Gomez, "Girlshapedlovedrug"
Cristina catches up with Colin, who shows up out of the blue. Derek and George prep for her operation. Callie tells George about her family.

3. Psapp, "Hi"
This one plays while Meredith tells Derek she is having dinner with her father, Thatcher, and the interns talk in the cafeteria.

4. Wild Sweet Orange, "Land Of No Return"
Meredith and her father and stepmother have dinner. Meanwhile, Dr. Burke questions Cristina about her past relationships.

5. Anya Marina, "Move You"
George and Izzie get drunk and have a blast together. Alex checks on Jane Doe, again. Cristina and Meredith have a heart to heart.

Episode 19: "My Favorite Mistake"

1. Mirah, "La Familia"
This song plays at the beginning of the episode as Izzie wakes up and Meredith and Cristina ask her questions about her night.

2. Alamo Race Track, "Black Cat John Brown"
At lunch, Izzie asks Meredith about blacking out after drinking. Cristina talks about Burke. Izzie asks about Jane Doe's face selection.

3. Adam Merrin, "Still Alright"
You hear this song as George has a flashback to the night before... and he goes to confront Izzie about it.

4. Let's Go Sailing, "All I Want From You Is Love"
This song plays as Meredith harvests bone during her much-anticipated operation, and Cristina amputates her patient's foot.

5. Let's Go Sailing, "Sideways"
Alex talks to Jane Doe about her new face. Cristina talks to Burke about their wedding. Meredith talks to Derek about her dad.

Episode 20: "Time After Time"

1. Amy Winehouse, "You Know I'm No Good"
The song plays as Burke and Cristina operate on a patient.

2. The Whitest Boy Alive, "Burning"
Plays as Cristina and Meredith discuss their issues with Colin and Susan, and Alex asks for Cristina's help.

3. Nouvelle Vague, "Dancing With Myself"
Playing in the background as the interns hang out at the clinic and talk about their patients.

4. Maria Taylor, "Clean Getaway"
George helps Izzie get dressed and she tells him about her family.

5. Lullaby Baxter, "Fontana Fontaine"
This track plays when Derek asks Bailey for advice about Meredith, and as George takes a recovering Izzie down to pediatrics.

6. Maria Taylor, "A Good Start"
Jane Doe argues with Alex. Burke and Cristina talk about Colin at home. Susan confronts Meredith and they have a heart to heart. Addison finds Richard hitting on a woman... and decides to intervene.

Episode 21: "Desire"

1. The Reddmen, "The Secrets of Amanda Prine"
We hear this song as the interns study for a big exam.

2. Let's Go Sailing, "Better Off"
Callie and Addison talk about their various relationships and feelings while this song plays (and Ava listens) in the background.

3. The Bird & The Bee, "Again & Again"
The interns continue studying, while testing out wedding cakes.

4. Beck, "Nausea"
The surgeons and interns participate in various operations.

5. Anna Waronker, "How Am I Doing"
This song plays at the end of the episode, as Cristina is studying and picks a cake, while George and Izzie talk about the future, and Addison unsuccessfully tries to get Alex to hang out with her.

Episodes 22 & 23: "The Other Side of This Life (Parts I & II)"

1. Feist, "Sealion"
The song plays as the interns are wakeful at night, and Cristina awakes to find Burke's mother is there.

2. The Mary Onettes, "Lost"
The song plays as Addison Montgomery drives along the Pacific coast and enters the Oceanside Wellness Clinic.

3. The Broken West, "Down In The Valley"
Addison enters the Wellness Clinic and finds Naomi.

4. The Switches, "Message From Yuz"
Naomi tells Addison they have an opening.

5. The Rosewood Thieves, "Los Angeles"
Couples therapy at the Wellness Center.

6. Jem, "California Sun"
Naomi and Addison talk, Violet runs into her ex.

7. The Adored, "Not Having It"
Cooper cries over his stripped vehicle.

8. Brandi Carlile, "Turpentine"
Addison yells at the elevator to stop talking!

Episode 24: "Testing 1-2-3"

1. Let's Go Sailing, "This Rope Is Long"
This song plays as Meredith gets dressed in a black dress as the interns study. Callie and George study. Meredith talks with Derek at the hospital and Cristina and Burke talk about the wedding.

2. Amy Winehouse, "Wake Up Alone"
The song plays as George tries to talk to the Chief, and the doctors operate on the three hypothermic mountain climbers.

3. Ingrid Michaelson, "Corner Of Your Heart"
Alex and Ava argue about her memory and what she really knows. Izzie tries to talk with George about Mercy West but becomes upset.

4. The Weather Machines, "Stains Of Saints"
This song plays as Addison joins Derek, Mark and Preston at Burke's bachelor party at Joe's bar.

5. Paolo Nutini, "Million Faces"
A mysterious woman offers to buy Derek a drink in the bar, while Ava (or Rebecca Pope) and Alex reconcile, and Richard finds Adele.

Episode 25: "Didn't We Almost Have It All"

1. The Jealous Girlfriends, "Roboxula"
Callie copies Cristina's vows onto her hand, Izzie and Meredith play toilet paper bride, Richard tells Mark he won't be Chief, and Bailey tells Derek that they found the fourth mountain climber.

2. Grace Potter, "Falling Or Flying"
Cristina is unable to sleep on the eve of her wedding day, Alex watches Rebecca and her husband talk, Derek talks to Meredith about his night.

3. Ray Lamontagne, "Hold You In My Arms"
Burke practices his vows in the O.R., Callie says she wants a baby, Alex talks with Rebecca's husband, Jeff, while he holds her baby.

4. Coburn, "Closer"
Cristina operates in order to clear her head before the ceremony. Izzie helps George tie his tie and declares her feelings for him.

5. Ray Lamontagne, "Within You"
The interns get their test results. Ava begs Alex to give her a reason to stay, and Meredith and Derek have a disappointing heart to heart.

6. The Hereafter, "Eulogy"
The song plays as Alex talks to Addison about Ava. George and Bailey talk about his results, and whether they failed one another. Meanwhile, the ladies get ready for the wedding.

7. The Mary Onettes, "Explosions"
Cristina readies herself and Preston goes to check on her.

8. Ingrid Michaelson, "Keep Breathing"
The song plays in the final few minutes of the episode as Alex looks for Rebecca, Meredith helps Cristina out of her dress, Callie watches Izzie sitting in the chapel, George meets Lexie Grey, and Richard talks with Derek about the Chief position.

P.S.
在雨天，在晚上，反反复复听着曾经在剧集里出现的那些歌。随着歌的旋律模模糊糊记得起那些情节，那些漂浮不定的情绪。

因为这部剧，记得Jem，记得Thirteen Senses，记得Snow Patrol，记得Keane，当然也会记得Meredith、Dereck、Cristina、Izzie这些人物。他们的哭与笑，快乐与悲伤，都在这些那些歌中。

Grey's 的第七集里，被那对老夫妻感动得哭了出来。
年过半百的老人握着一起走过了半生的人同样苍老的手，互相笑着说“my love, goodbye.”
在每一次手术前告别，然后在手术结束后，再次地，say hello。
因为从第一次就知道，每一次的告别都可能成为永别。这并不是玩笑。所以用着虔诚深情的表情和爱一次次做最后的仪式。
假以你这一次离开，也不是带着遗憾分离。
是不是这样子。
于是他们说，这才是真正的相濡以沫。
  
然而感动我的，却不只是这样子。
  
或许在等待的男人心里，从来没有真正设想和接受过那一种无法再相见的可能性。于是理所当然地等待着同爱人说你好的时间，
然而这一次的告别，却真的成为了永别。
那个苍老的、失了平静的声音在说，不要离开我。
一遍一遍。
那双老迈的、不肯停下手，执著地在早已经没了心跳的心脏上反复徒劳的动作。
只要你醒来。
上天没有赐予一点奇迹的怜悯，那个惶然无措的老人，在黄昏黑夜里，始终没有等到白昼。
   
那么，到底是要怎样的深情切意，才能在十年、二十年、三十年、四十年、五十年……这样漫长的时间里，一次次将无情的光阴打败。在这个寡情而薄幸的现实里。
  
于是那些相濡以沫的事情，在心里渐渐筑成了一座固若金汤的城堡，那叫做……奇迹吧。
  
之于找寻。多少人终其一生都在找寻。
在这样烟雾缭绕的世界里，是不是有着那样的存在，值得我们葬掉半生也要去等待。

　　　《Grey's Anatomy》
　　关系
　　第一季开头，凌乱的现场，naked girlGrey在闹钟声中一把抓起地上睡得正酣的男人裹着的被单，并将一个枕头摔到了他的臀部上。
　　男人还想说什么，Grey请他马上离开，因为自己要上班了，而她还叫不出来他的名字。
　　他们分别前说的最后一句话是：“很高兴认识你。”
　　COOL！
　　男女平等，莫过如此。
　　
　　enemy or competition
　　Dr. Burke得知 Dr. Shepherd是上司richard挖来，一向认为外科主任的位子在自己囊中的他，开始有了危机感。他去问下属，问intern，自己像不像外科主任？自己有什么缺点？
　　Dr. Shepherd大方邀约Dr. Burke下班一起去喝一杯。他的轻松微笑，理由是：要了解你的朋友，也要了解你的敌人。Dr. Burke则回答：you are not an enemy,you are just competition.
　　而在intern中间，竞争更无处不在，一个号召，都会有如林的手臂举起。
　　但他们的competition如此透明。
　　没有权谋、厚黑、算计，这样的competition，很好。
　　
　　3R
　　God，我喜欢Grey的内心独白。喜欢她的3R理论。
　　她说，人生有3R:relatives,romance,roomates.
　　
　　love story
　　最近看连岳，里面充满着这个时代混乱的感情，just like天涯上那一段段故事。老妈不知道我在看什么，里面的内容，她会吓坏的吧。到处是婚外情、一夜情、无性爱、无爱性、劈腿、三三，如果不是可爱的连岳，谁还会认为读这样的东西是一件美好的事情呢？
　　《ugly betty》里，时尚界内，更上一层楼，是同性恋、变性人的故事了，而Danile的老妈也在为走了一个三，又来了一个三而烦恼。
　　环球同此凉热啊。
　　Frankie的最爱就是GA，多么明晰的、蓝白色的医学世界，还有Shepherd和Grey，Burke和Yang.看上去那样美好。
　　
　　情感问题
　　美好永远都只是一瞬间的事情。
　　Grey发现Shepherd原来是有老婆的。而真在选择面前，男人更狠。看上去冷面冷口冷心的Yang，我们以为她更冷静。但主任的位子，让Burke做出更冷的决定。
　　两个受伤的女人相拥而取得一点点人间的温暖。就像《Sex and the City》里的女人们。
　　越来越觉得，感情，真是一样复杂的东西。Emotion is a mess.forever.
　　
　　good-looking man
　　和表弟论争，哪个医生帅？我觉得Burke太帅了，就像YANG的妈妈说的，真是good-lookingman，而且黑人中，好像很少有这样帅的男人。戴上很另类的花头巾，真是太酷了。Shepherd当然也不错，我记起来他拍过电影《sweet home alabama》。不过还是觉得Burke越看越帅啊。Anyway，我和Frankie都觉得Yang不好看，但看习惯了还是有一些风情。再说美国人眼中的亚洲美女都是此种类型，像Lucy liu式的。
　　Yang失去了一个男友、一个baby，一个输卵管，情绪终于崩溃大哭。Burke路过，拥住了她。很温暖。
　　不是每个故事都有美好结局。但我们希望如此，虽然有时只是希望。
　　
　　老美女
　　Meredith当然是剧中的一号女主角，却有人不喜欢她。
　　老。声音不好听。
　　有人说。
　　我喜欢Meredith，包括喜欢她脸上那痛苦的皱纹，喜欢她有点哑哑的却特别真实的嗓音，像哑光一样不亮眼，却有质感，令人心折。Izzie当然也很可爱，却缺少Meredith那一种优雅的风度。
　　大多中国男人的审美观，就是青春可人，岁月的智慧，他们不懂得欣赏。
　　Pick me，choose me，and love me.
　　她对derek说。我真是爱死这句话，但又是喜欢又是心疼。她真是一个勇敢坚强可爱的女孩。只是很多男人，怕接受不了这样主动又独立的思想吧。
　　
　　you deserve better.
　　you deserve better.
　　在剧中，男女分手时，我们常常可以听到这句话。不论是否出自真心，或是礼貌，这句话，总是代表着一种理性的方式吧。而在我们平日所看到的，分手大都很难看，仓皇、退避、谎言、拖欠、借口。
　　剧中分分合合很多，也许是为了剧情需要，但是，他们都很率直，能说出自己要说的，TO tell a lie，在美国的文化中，或许是被看作一种很大的过错，甚至人品格、人性的污点，而且他们，也总是有勇气去面对与改正。中国人，何时有这种勇气？
　　
　　sense and sensibility
　　人给人生和社会规定了许许多多的规则。
　　《GA》里，Denny说，人生苦短，不可能都按规则来行事。
　　还有一句常说的话：We can make mistakes,everyone can make mistakes.所谓错误，也不过是在理智和感情的斗争中，人往往有时顺从了感情而非社会规则，或说，理性。更可怕的是，人往往不知道自己内心到底在想什么？往往，心和身体，就会背判大脑。
　　理智与情感，哪一个会占上风？
　　而意外，总是在计划时出现。
　　人生因为充满意外，因为不规则，才成为人生。
　　
　　亲人
　　Meredith，对她好的，不是她的亲爸，而是Richard，她的stepmother，对她的关心也似亲妈。
　　她的亲爸，在知道老婆抢救无效时，给了她一个耳光。他真是一个懦弱无用的爹。在Mer溺水抢救时，他不知道在哪里，是Richard抢救她，不抛弃，不放弃。他明知老婆的死与她无关，为了泄愤，给了她一个耳光。而他谈到一张老照片，津津乐道地说，这是他的另外一个女儿。而Mer却说，那是我。
　　他的，他从小就离开的女儿。
　　我最深爱的人伤我却是最深。
　　不知为什么，我想到了郑欣宜。

　　　It takes two.
　　A男和B女broke up，在我们这里简直是一石激起千层浪。
　　有人站在A一边，有人站在B一边。
　　其实，Baily说了，It takes two.
　　最近可能看多了连岳和GA，我以为，无论开始人的初衷有多么美好，世界在变化，人在变化。而快乐是不多的。
　　我希望A能快乐，我希望B能成长。因为，
　　It's time to stand up,time to grow up.

　　
　　
　　　　last episode
　　看到S4，舍不得看完，希望故事继续。看到S4，last episode，这一集，非常感动。
　　越来越理解Mere，她是一个单亲家庭的孩子，如同她的名字，grey,这名字真是好。dark,twisted,hesitate.她与derek的感情这样纠结，是因为她被伤害，她日常的生活少有温暖的底色,所以她犹疑，惶惑，近情情怯。
　　但她在努力，在成长。她敢于直面自己的问题，就是进了一步，她要从她母亲那里看到自己的缺陷，然后弥补，长大。就这一点，她就是一个talent,gifted,extraordinary的人。
　　GA，讲的就是这样一群有着各自缺点的，不完美的人，可是他们都在学习成长、学习修正自己的人性弱点，正如alex眼底滑落的那一滴泪一样，令人感动。
　　这才是真正的人，这才是真正的人生，这就是GA的意义。
　　
　　

一
她长的算不上多么漂亮，只比克里斯丁娜·杨好看一些，没有伊兹·斯蒂文那么性感。但是，她有一双象是永远沉浸在梦中的，水光荡漾的眼睛。她有一个笑容，常常被雾笼罩的，有点无奈的，明知道蠢却也非得这么做请你原谅的笑容。
她是梅莉迪斯·格蕾，西雅图恩典医院外科女实习医生，她爱上了已婚的主治医生德瑞克·德瑞克，注定要经历悲惨的感情生活。有朋友说剧集很好看，但是讨厌这对男女主角，按他的话说就是没一个爽快人。德瑞克爱格蕾，当出轨的妻子把一纸离婚书给他，他却退缩了，选择了家庭却又不肯放弃格蕾。我不讨厌他，因为生活中确实有这样的男人，在感情和内心的道德律中间摇摆不定，哪个也不想舍弃，却给所有相关的人包括他自己带来痛苦。他的痛苦是真实的，他的感情也是真实的。只是他在生活中无法象在手术台上那般决断。
而格蕾只是爱着，她的理智不想这样，但感情占了上风，无法控制，无可救药。所以每次在医院，病房里，走廊上，看见德瑞克，她立刻迷失，束手无策，就象飞蛾，怎么样也抑制不了向火苗扑去的渴望。
那是与生具来的本能，我理解。莉香对完治也是这么说的，爱上了一个人，有什么办法呢？
二
伊兹也是这样。
伊兹·斯蒂文，从小在拖车屋长大的女孩，靠给《男人帮》拍内衣插页赚够了读医学院的学费。她以为自己可以成为一个好外科医生的，但是她爱上了自己的病人，一个心脏功能衰竭却有着温暖笑容的男人，丹尼。
因此别的都不重要了。
为给爱人抢到一颗移植的心脏，她亲手割断了丹尼维持生命的管子，触犯了作为一个医生的所有禁忌，甚至法律，还把4个好友卷了进来。当丹尼醒来的那一刻，你看她脸上的光，那是透过最黑最重的云层一角射下的太阳的光辉。
那时侯我知道，丹尼活不了了。
编剧不会让他活着。偷来的心脏不可能属于他。
但我还是喜欢伊兹喜悦的神情，打心眼里向外发散的幸福，尽管那么短暂。
“……我觉得我的动作慢下来了。我的动作很慢，而我周遭的一切事物却是那么快，我想回到过去，回到正常的样子，而不是现在这个可怜的伊兹，穿着礼服躺在洗手间的地板上，跟他死去的未婚夫在一起，但是我回不去了……怎么会发生这种事？怎么会这样结束？为什么我是孤独一人？”
三
爱情不过是《实习医生格蕾》的一部分。5个实习医生，更多的要面对生死，面对抉择，为一个生命作决定。
剧集里许多病例故事单拿出来都可以拍成一部优秀的电影。
一场火车车祸，一根钢管穿透了一对陌生男女，两个只能活一个，要放弃那个伤更重但是痛时也能说笑话的女孩吗？
一对老人，妻子只有6个月的生命，妻子瞒着丈夫，丈夫瞒着妻子，因为他们约定，要去威尼斯，在夕阳西下时候坐平底船穿过叹息桥，传说这样就会永远在一起。
一个女人晚期肺癌，她说，“我一辈子没抽过烟，没吸过大麻，从不喝酒，今天之前，10年没吃过甜点，在别人眼里，是健康的化身，可我却得了肺癌，很荒谬是吗？我一辈子都压抑，抑制每个冲动，遵守规则，现在我不要这么做了。我要找回我的生活。”
她拒绝了手术，出院了——“至少在我这么做的时候，我知道自己曾经活过。”
生老病死，人生里所有的线索最后在这里交织，展现出真实与残酷的一面，阴影中又有勇气和美好。
四
心是我们活着的标志。一颗健康的心就象战鼓，把携带养分的血液及时泵到全身，是维持我们生命的动力系统。
人心千姿百态，梅雷迪斯·格雷痴情的心，克里斯丁娜·杨捉摸不定的心，伊兹·斯蒂文狂热的心，乔治·梅利淳朴的心，亚里克斯·卡莱脆弱的心。最完美的心是住院医生米兰达.贝莉的，坦率近乎透明，真实如刀锋入骨，被唤作纳粹，却在严厉中让你体会真正的善良。
人心是脆弱的。冠心病，先心病，风心病，心肌病……心会累，会疲倦，也想休息，逃避，时不时的怠工。有人想换掉，有人甘愿坚守。
所以西雅图恩典医院最好的心胸外科医生伯克总是很忙，忙着用手术刀划开胸腔，把一颗心拿出来，捧在手里，切切剪剪，缝缝补补。
那些受伤的心，有些死了，有些开始新生。
我最喜欢的斯丁的歌是关于心的，《Shape of My Heart》——我知道黑桃代表卫兵的剑，我知道梅花是战争的枪，我知道钻石象征着财富，但是那并非我心的形状， That′s not the shape, the shape of my heart ……
亦舒小说里常提到洛史超域的一首歌，也是与心有关。《玫瑰的故事》中——气渐渐有点凉意,我驾车上班,扭开无线电听,红灯的时候头枕在驾驶盘上,无线电上在播放洛史超域的歌——“我不想说及/你如何碎了我的心/如果我再逗留一刻/你是否聆听我的心/噢,心/我的心/我的老心”。《丁香》中——她身边放看一架小小无线电，正在播放洛史超域那永远不灭的歌：“如果我独自站着，影子是否会掩藏我心的颜色，蓝色是眼泪，黑色是天空运行的星，对你来说， 不会比一面镜子更有意义……”我一向最爱洛史超域的慢歌，充满感情的声音诉说一些微不足道的琐事，但这琐事却是爱情呢……
亦舒有个短篇就叫《破碎的心》——　我立刻注意到她脖子上挂的一条项链，红色珊瑚的小珠子，串住一颗金色的心型坠子，本来很普通，但是那枚心在左上方却是有裂痕的，细细的痕中嵌镶着碎粒的蓝宝石，像是心碎了，又复元了，但永远留下难忘的瘀痕。
开头是破碎的心，结尾也是——
我是一个成年人，以后的生活，再凄苦再空虚，我还是得若无其事地活下去。
但是我的心已碎。
可儿在我的生命中出现、消失，如一颗流星，闪亮后的黑暗，我也会学习习惯。
但要忘记她，却也不是这么容易的一件事呢，每次看到穿白衣的女孩子，我的心使隐隐作痛。
我开始爱上洛史超域的一首歌：
——“我的心，我的老心，如果我再逗留一刻，你是否会聆听我的心？”
看来，在我们一生中，心都是要破碎的，有的碎的多一点，有的少一点，有的很快就修补上了，有的留下疤痕，有的留下裂缝，也有的干枯至死。
只是，你的心，是否曾有人聆听？